I used to like my music loud. I used to like it on while I worked and played and created. I used to amass information, and care, so passionately. It used to define me to such a degree.
I used to tape stuff off the radio. Dave Fanning was my sensai.
And now... too loud and I can't do anything else at the same time. I don't know anything about anything new. I can't afford it when I do want something.I can't get my head around new technology. I saw an ipod nano the other day for the first time and it was like looking at something out of a sci-fi film. I am my grandmother. Crank up the gramophone. Or maybe don't, I just can't quite take it right now. The noise, the emotion, the resonance.
I've turned into one of those people who used to seem alien to me. Someone who doesn't really feature music in their lives.
I hate it. But I don't have the energy to turn it around.
I can't seem to really read books anymore either.
I miss my teenage brain, sometimes.