nightmare

Test 300 or so, 300 or so essays on a book set in post Holocaust Jerusalem, about a people shadowed by atrocity and suddenly, the idea of Sophie's choice leaps into my head (thanks, Xbox) in technicolour empathy and the breath whooshes out of me in the full horror of it. There's an iron weight on my chest. That that must surely have been someone's true story, what would you do, what would you do? Go too, with both? Better to die all together than forsake one, knowing what you were sending them to? Or worse to condemn them both, and yourself. But how could you live?

Perhaps I should be taking a pill for this, this condition of over feeling.