Sunday, April 24, 2011

I went

Because I have no balls. Because when it comes to the crunch, it's easier to hurt myself than anyone else. The mother in law pretended nothing had happened and there was lots of nice food. I made a quiche but I put the mix in the big quiche tin by accident, I think, and then it all fell out the bottom as I hadn't sealed the pastry, so it was about 3 mm thick, oopsie. Still tasty though.

But I feel deflated. And like sleeping forever. If I slept right through tomorrow, would I still be a year older when I woke up? 

13 comments:

Ms. Moon said...

Is it your birthday, Jo? Oh. I wish you were happier if it is. Hell, I wish you were happier even if it isn't.
Sending love, birthday and otherwise.

Jo said...

Tomorrow. Tomorrow is my birthday. And nice people are making me lunch and cake, it's all good. I just don't want to be 35.

Sylvia said...

I'm really glad,well done.I learnt the hard way that to react to hurtful treatment just makes it worse, cos the situation gets bigger and bigger, and can really cause you anxiety. Don't let people impose their issues on you, making their problems become your problems.

Jo said...

I don't think well done. I think she got to treat me shittily and I just let her. And though I have split up with my husband, my mother in law and I have to suffer each other still because I'm too weak conflicted to actually make a proper break so I'm living out this charade that he's content with, at the expense of my emotional health. I don't think there's anything to be congratulated for here. Yes, it was ok, yes in the end it was easier to go but, that's it. No more than that.

Mick said...

You'll be stronger next year :-)
Happy Birthday for tomorrow.

itchybbollix said...

shave your head a lá Britney Spears? That'll learn the ****ers!

itchybollix said...

i've got a bbollix of a speech impediment today

Annie said...

Happy birthday Jo, with much love from all the way over here. Hope you have a good day xxx

Jo said...

Thanks, Annie x

itchy... er, maybe not. and - what?

Sylvia said...

Happy birthday,Jo, hope you enjoy your day.

catherine said...

Happy happy birthday Jo..really hope you got a smidgen of happiness out of it..if it makes you feel any better , I got on the wrong side of 40 on my last one :(..but I still feel like 19around my mother in law..I do it for peace sake..or cos Im just too afraid to upset the apple cart..it makes me feel like shit too..look on the bright side, 35 is better than 41 ..warmest wishes x

Jo said...

I know Catherine, it feels pretty close to 41, though! Time is just wooshing.

Thanks, Sylvia.

Mwa said...

I know about the hurting thing. It's horrible. I think there should be a way out in which no one gets hurt. I always seem to pick me as well.