Ok, so I'm sorry about the previous post. I was dithering about taking it down, before and since posting it, but I needed to get it out of me. Let's move swiftly on.
So. I've killed a dog today. He is dispatched and beneath the sod. I feel like a murderer, but the promise of increased cleanliness and diminished responsibility is good. One sort of guilt swapped for another.
My cupcakes wrappers are all peeling way from the cake. Why is that? I thought this is a foolproof recipe. So I'm going to go experiment with some more. I think one of my three wishes would be for things to work just so... no unnecessary, time consuming bumps in the road and fiddling and redoing. Things would take the time they are meant to, less of the unexpected faffing.
Happily wonderful Nicola has said she'll babysit for me tonight, so barring flood or spontaneous combustion I get to go out to Annie's do. But for now, I go cakewards.
8 comments:
couldn't comment in your last post. You are going through a TREMENDOUS amount of crap right now and you are so right to feel overwhelmed and alone.
dying/dead dogs, break-up, housecleaning, getting rid of past possessions... all extremely taxing on your emotions.
What if you gave housecleaning and selling your stuff a break for a while and used that time to do something fulfilling with people you love?
It seems to me you need to fill up your life right now with NEW positive beautiful memories and not so completely centered on ridding yourself of the old. You risk emptying your very self, no?
Fill up that void ASAP with a picnic, visit some water, water is very healing, frolic in the woods, do something memorable with one or both kids. Help someone in need. Reach out. There is someone out there looking for a hug, too.
sending you a hug from afar!
Thanks geeks. I did turn off the comments for the last post because I felt bad about attention seeking and any ensuing inpouring of virtual huggery. I do appreciate it though. Will post soon about going to the fireworks! That was lovely.
RIP dogface :( Poor little thing was merely existing in pain though, so it's less 'killing', more merciful release. It doesn't make it any less painful I know. I'm sorry you had to do that, I really am.
Hope you enjoy yourself immensely tonight :)
I get it. I do. And yet, we go on. We bake cakes.
Have such fun tonight.
And let yourself be relieved for your dog. Seriously. Relieved.
Ah Jo, I don't really know what to say but don't be embarrassed about that last post. You are fully entitled to feel what you feel and I'm sure it changes all the time.
Big hug to you. x
Ack Jo, I'm so sorry, I didn't realise what you were going through right now. Hugs to you. Let's have that coffee soon xxx
hey, if the dog was very old and not well it's totally OK to have him put down, in my opinion. please don't feel guilty. you didn't even buy the dog, did you, you took him on as a favour! lots of people let their dogs suffer for years because they can't bear to have them put down, and that's cruel, i.m.o.
I reckon the middle of the night can be one of the cruelest times in the whole twenty-four hours of a day/night.
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