Wednesday, October 24, 2012

applying myself

Writing this application form is so hard. I have to keep stopping to not hyperventilate.

I've fuck all experience, I've fuck all ambition, I haven't attended any in-service courses or held any posts of responsibility, I'm not involved in extra curricular activities I can promote in school, apart from writing in a genre I can't tell you about, and my self esteem and depression issues constantly assure me you'd be mad to hire me as I can't work hard or offer much to your school at all and I'd rather just lie down on the floor right now than keep working on any of it. And I feel sick at the thought of actually getting an interview.

Breathe. Breathe. Keep doing it in little segments. Stop pulling your hair out.

Ugh. 

4 comments:

Janine Ashbless said...

You can do it!
Pretend you're someone confident and cool, and write what they would say!

Jo said...

I'm really trying. But it's taking me all day. Not finished yet! Though the hard bit's done.

Ms. Moon said...

Well, I think you should be very proud of yourself. I mean it, Jo. What a difficult thing to do!

Catherine said...

Picture yourself in the job..doing it effortlessly and smiling..you can do it... :)