Saturday, July 23, 2016

my life is full of but

So many things that don't go anywhere.

I can write words together in a pleasing configuration (sometimes) but I never have a sustainable idea for anything long form.

I'd love to write children's books but the thought of how much work has to go into them, the promo, the dog work, the perseverance... I don't think I have what it takes.

I'm funny, but I can't see myself being consistent enough to make it into a job.

I want to excercise and eat healthily but I have no will-power, I keep crawling exhaustedly back to bad habits.

I want to make money but I'm lazy and I procrastinate and my lack of confidence drains my energy right out of anything I have to do and at this point I'm convinced I can't do anything well and I shouldn't take anything on.

I love my children, but I fail them all the time... I don't work hard enough for them, myself keeps getting in the way.

I love being social, but it's mostly too much effort to follow through and be giving enough to the people I know.

I want to be positive and strong, but the sense of helplessness I feel a lot ovewhelms that.

It's always but. And I can see how lame these sentences are... but ...

How do you get rid of the but? 


Ms. Moon said...

Let me know if you find out. Seriously, for me it takes loved ones not giving up on me to motivate to do anything. I'm so lucky to have them.

Jo said...

Well, don't forget you made lots of 'em :) And the other ones get back far more than you realise. xx